It's been two months since I lost Robin. I still feel utterly guilty. It's all my fault that I lost them. Erik and I have been trying since to try to get pregnant again. On purpose this time. And now it doesn't look like that's going to happen.
I am heart broken.
And everyone is finding out what they are having and different announcements that they are pregnant.
I want to crawl in to a hole, cry, and not get out, ever.
And I still feel guilty about feeling bad about my miscarriage. I only knew I was pregnant for 4 days, why do I get to grieve?
One of my mommy friends lost her little one not that long ago, she was a lot further along than I was. Someone else, she is celebrating one year without her son, he was born silent.
All of this just sucks
